i miss blogging

duhh! it has been almost 3 months i didn't post any entries in my baby bloggie.. well do u all miss me? my story?? well actually i am not kinda like doing blogging anymore.. :) i have a tumblr and twitter. so any updates are on them. check out :) i know that blogging is something to express urself and updating about ur life but for me i choose not doing that anymore. just let the memories be in my mind and lasts forever :)

i am the luckiest girl in the universe

well i just read a blog from my school mate and i found this.. remember about the story of us that we were dumped??? sad thing huh? okay not anymore cause i have opened my mind into the different perspective heee :) so read this :

what do you think?well obviously, i am thinking that i am the luckiest girl as ALLAH still loves me and wanna care about me... i am the chosen one.. from now on, i promise to myself that i won't be in that stupid and useless relationship which just bring me to nothing. i will just wait for someone to hand in marriage i mean meminang when the time has come! well i still have friends and bestfriends either girls or boys. they are my everything and friendship lasts forever rite? no more about boyfie thingy haha i am not desperate to have a boyfie :)

sometimes i'm single means i am drama free, less pressure, nothing that i need to take care of, i am refuse to settle for less. haha... am i rite???

we are the perfect two... pffftttt! enough idiot!

"dun know if i could ever be without you,cause boy you complete me" pffffttt enough babes about this auburn- perfect two. cause i just can't listen to this song anymore. it will make me feel bitter about that stupid and meaningless relationship haha...

so plss dun ever play this song in front of me or i will hentam2 ur phone or radio without any sounds.. i am trying to forget him! it is not easy,though.

well, i never told him what i should say as i have no guts to do this..so here it is:

dear EX,

my dreams are growing into frustrations when i hear your voice cause it feeding me till i'm choking.my ears are ringing louder repeating words that bring me down.

so hold your breath and spare me from the pointless conversation,as i'm running out of patience

don't blame me for trying to reach as you are moving forward and i feel as if i can't catch up

cause i'm stuck here at the bottom unfortunately, you're too high up to come back down. i am trying to reach you but i fall :) pity me dear hahha..

ps:i managed to forget you eventually :) thanks to you for leaving me

i'm still waiting for my turn

i feel soo hurt.. sorry for troubling you... we are bestfrens rite.? no fighting as u want. sorry for this feeling. i know i never be a good enough girl for you.. sorry for being too honest. if this will be the way for us to remain as frens then i will follow what u really want. but it such a cruel statement!

i treat u as bff and nothing more. i never expect anything.. i just want you to be mine. just for my heart self. then i will be alrite.. trust me

'memang lah semua hak aku untuk dirampas'

u really wanna know rite? my 'hak' is you... sorry. i just dun wanna lose u. enough for me to give my 'hak' to another girls cause this will make me hurt.! i dun wanna be such a crybabygirl. and the weak girl as i am too easy to giving up about guys. but i know there are other girls who are better than me. i know.! cause i am nothing! i will never have something special to be showed off but i rather be in this situation than being too show off about myself.

sorry again cause many of my frens asked me to forget you and like other guys. i dun know what they meant cause i really want you.. but unfortunately, u too asked me to forget you.. fine! i will get rid of this feeling eventually.. dun worry i'll do it! cause i dun want our friendship gone forever.

i know i shouldn't have this feeling.. as u said "feeling xleh dipksa". it is true. but forcing my feeling for not liking you is much worse u know! don't speak again..i am still waiting for my turn.. it hurts to reach you when i'm down

ps: being in a friendship is better than in the relationship when u are not ready - hilmi hariz

SHOPPING AND MOVIE IN KL

hey dude and babe.. sorry for not updating my blog recently. i just dun feel like writing. dun know why.
something was not wrong perhaps.

okayy let us start with my activity during semester break.well yeah me cause me,hilmi and caza went to KL and we were shopping and watching a movie called THE ROOM MATE starring by LEIGHTON MEESTER.. you know how much i love her! waaa what a psycho movie i told ya...

haaa we were like saying errghhhh what the hell tetttt hahaa :P okayy for me this movie is not bad.. u better watch it on cinema.. heee :)

but then we were shopping at TS cause there were a lot of pretty clothes as i never knew haha pity me! okay after this i'll be going to TS to shop clothes cause the prices are reasonable okayy :) i bought a dress and a kemeja.. haha.. hem caza bought a stiletto, a kemeja and other things i am not sure of cause she spent alot! ouh dun forget my big bro, hilmi as he was shopping too.. i thought guys won't be too fussy about choosing clothes.. well i was wrong.. he was too fussy... i tell you hahah :P

well thanks to them cause i was so happy for that wednesday 4 march 2011.. all the gossiping stuff, shopping stuff and other things... i like it and i want it again.let's us hang out together again :) hehehe

hilmi, aimi and caza :)

the room mate movie tickets :) ouh new hair cut :) hehe

caza.. she is gorgeous,isn't she? she is my adik hehe

meet my sengal big bro, hilmi hariz

the happiness :)

ps: macam lahh kat penang xleh lepak sama2 kan?? hahha :P

kejadian-kejadian yang berlaku semasa nak pulang ke rumah

hey xpekan kalau aku guna bahasa melayu nh...? korang paham kan?? haha okay sekarang meh baca kejadian2 yang telah menggangu aku untuk pulang ke rumah dengan ekspress..tension tau sbb xpena2 jadi cmni..nasib baik lahh aku tidak cepat cemas dan marah2 haha..tapi penat tuh adalah.. baisanya dari penang - kl cuma 4 jam je tapi semalam sampai 6 jam.. cm penang- melaka je.. lama kan? sakit belakang aku duk lama2.. haishhhhh

okay nh kejadian-kejadian yang berlaku dari mula aku abis menjawab kertas exam terakhir iaitu ESE 122

1.soalan ESE 122 pergi byk pulak kuar soklan pasal theory drpd kira2.mmg lah aku kua awal sbb lupa semua tuh.igt nak balik je :P

2. byk lagi brg nk kna angkut ke uma atira.xde transport.terpksalah mnta tlg aishah ramli n kawan dia n roy utk angkut barang2 aku. terima kasih

3. tertinggal bus.tp plik bus tuh tiba2 punctual pulak.selama nh lembab je nk gerak -,-

4.dapat pulak bus yg lain,syukur tp lembab gila! nk gerak lembab nak smpai KL pun lembab.ada abg yg baik hati tolong angkatkn beg ktrg yg berat

5. bus rupanya turun kat puduraya bukannya kat hentian duta lagi..dah satu masalah pulakk

6.sampai2 KL hujan turun renyai2.. harungi jugaklahh sebab bus bukan turunkn kat pudu tapi depan bangunan maybank..errrr

7.ada abang yang baik hati yg tolong agkutkn beg tadi ciankan ktrg "nak balik selayang ke? abg ada kereta.abg nak ke sg buloh nh"

8. banyak pulak pemandu2 teksi ckp "dik, nak kemana? teksi ke?teksi ke?

9.dlm bus tadi ramai pelancong dan memekak pulak mereka.nk tido pon xleh.

10. bus tadi bantai pegi berhenti kat tepi highway kejap.buat cuak aku je,abis aku trigt semua cerita-cerita hantu ahha

11. ada peperangan lagu2 korea dan thai. bayangkanlah cmna suasananya haha

12. ada pkcik berdengkur dlm bus..ganggu betul -,- sedap pulak dia tido dlm bus sempit tuh

13.masa ayah tira nak amik tuh, sib baik ada pakcik teksi yg baik hati tunjukkan direction kat ayah tira sbb xnmpk ktrg yg kerdil ini haha

14.ouh lupa! ktrg lapar sbb xmakan pape pon dari pagi.. sebok ngn exam

15.bus pulak xberhenti lgsg kat mana2.. xleh nak ke tandas taw..wuwuwuwwu

okay takat tuh je lahh kot yg aku ingat..tapi papepon aku syukur sgt sebab aku dengan athira selamat tiba ke rumah masing pukul 430 :) syukur alhamdulillah :)

lepas nh nak naik tren je senang -,-

ps:trigt atiqa roomate aku cakap "kalau kita teruja sangat nak balik mesti ada benda buruk yang berlaku " :) so nh sebagai dugaan jugak ahh... xdelahh teruk mana pun kan? hehe

why should i care?

dear MR. JACOB a.k.a MR.A,

i just realised u remove me from ur fren list. well tq for doing so.

it means u never ever wanna be my frens anymore.

yeah i can feel that as u are really freak to me

well i dun give a damn about this!

we are nothing now...

i can live without. i won't die without you

yeah that's for sure.

i never care about you since march when i started meeting SH.

like seriously i never care and never miss you

then why should i care about you?? haha

honestly, i like when you removed me

seriously!

but for surely i started hating you

i love myself for hating you coz i thought i won't be able to hate you :)

bye bye jacob

sorry for troubling you

and thank you sooo much for troubling me :)

ps: may u happy with that chick hahha

semester break has begun!!!!!!!!!!

hello hello hello.. ouh MAY is coming and that's mean the semester break has begun... hooorayyy frens.. let's party babeh! okayy just for this month... i repeat for this month only i dun need to touch, open and read any books..yeay me coz it's semester break babe.. dun need to be freaking rajin about books haha..!

okay what to do what to do what to do? ouh i got many plans for this semester break..

ouh let us start with shopping!well shopping is a must! haha.. shop till i drop! i really love this situation coz i can release my mind after that freaking examination haha

okay next is photoshooting... yeay i loikeeee babeh! 7th may! then my lil bro's birthday party on 8th may! ouh yeah.. i love partying :)

ouh what's next?? haaa hang out and reunion with superb buddies... gossiping and gossiping non-stop okayyyy...arghhhhhh too many things to be listed here.. but i hope i can enjoy this superb semester break as the semester break is only 3 weeks.. pity me. i hate this fact!

the royal wedding

haha... lame...

i know i am kinda late becoz i post this entry...but i dun care...i want to post about the royal wedding! haha.. yeah i watched the wedding live on ntv7.. TRUST ME! I WAS TOO AMAZED ABOUT THE WEDDING.. and again.. lucky KATE MIDDLETON for marrying a prince.. congratulations to her. and she really deserved it as she is pretty, intelligent and moderate!

ouh i was waiting for the royal kiss.. awwwww *love love love

quote of the day...

HAPPY BORNDAY ATHIRAH

okayy enuff abt school thingy.. now it is time for wishing

HAPPY SWEET 19TH BIRTHDAY TO NURUL ATHIRAH

yesssss it is her big day! hohoho she's already 19 years old today.. omg..dah besar lah tira.. dah tua hahah :P

i would like to give you some words... i dun know...i just think i need to write this.. plss be terharu masa baca nh haha.. i have no present to give you as usual hehe sorry tira :(

read this;

dear athirah,

we already knew each other for almost 12 years.

what a long period rite??

we've been in the same class since year 1 until form 5

and we are here together in UiTM

kuat kan jodoh kita?

i love u athirah

tq for being such a great fren

u are cheerful, happy-go-lucky,cute,pretty and brilliant too

it is a precious thing that i can know you in my life

i just hope our friendship will last forever

i do trust you more than others cause i know you

i want you to be a strong great girl

may allah bless you

hope u can success in life

dun forget ALLAH,family,friends and ME!

have a better birthday on your big day :)

enjoy and chill okayy..

i heart youu.. hehe

just now her housemates made a surprise roof top party for her.. untungkan?? hehe i still remember last year, me and other frens were planning a surprise party for her and it all worked! hehee..

happy birthday again sayangg! :)

the memories will be last forever in my heart

here are some of the photos when i was a school student :P

meet syera my bff in school. we were always together :) ehhe

graduation day with the bff and gf heh :P

the chaos situation of 5 science theta hehe

xde keje namanya nh :P

a few days before SPM..terukkan? we were like miserable haha

bffs in school.. meet syera and athirah :P

kat dewam besar.dun be surprised. we can bring handphone at school :P

the last day of being student,the last day of SPM. ENGINEERING DRAWING :)

tiba2 trigt zaman sekolahh *Bahasa melayu pulak

the great generation of THETA

yes i am the assistant monitor :)

time table yg unik :)

motto kelas 5 science theta..chumel kan?haha

pelan kedudukan

graduation day :)

sorry tiba2 aku trigt zaman sekolah sbb nak buat reunion cuti nanti ahaha..

dah rindu kat member2 theta weyhh! siyesly..xde sape yg lebih sengal dari mereka hahah :P

haha kelas yg aku plg ingat mestilah masa form 5.

kelas aku 5 SC THETA.!

haha klu korang baca nh mesti xsgka yg aku mmg nakal kat sek dulu

suka buat kepoh.... :P pemalas dan segalanya lahh haha

ak rasa mmg ak enjoy j g sek!
(biasany tyap2 thn ak enjoy..bkn peduli hal sek pon haha)
well ak xsk siapkn hwork sbb trlalu byk n ak rasa cm xptt plak ak wat
ak sk tru keje kwn2 ak..
datang sek j mst mnta buku dowg..
pduli pe ak tp plik kot sbb results ak mst lbh ok dr kwn yg lain..
hahaha
ak nh sk study last minute (jgn tru cara nh!xbagos)
mlm sblm exam br ah bkk bku smpi lebam!
hahaha
mama ak xksh pon klu ak xstdy yg pnting result gempak (hahah lawak an?)
hem ak kat sek rapat gak ngn syaira,naura,athirah ,sarah,akma,lea,pah n amalina (sll kongsi gosip)
hahah ak plg sk bergosip!
xd cikgu j dlm kelas mst ak g tmpt kwn2 ak n bergosip!
jgn tny ah nape..
hahaha
ak nh penolong tingkatan tp cm hampeh kowt sbb ak yg mnybbkn kelas bising sgt!!
hahahha
sk wat chaos ak nh..
hem ttg kwn llki plak ak rapat ngn mukhriz,izzat,amirul,aniq n ridhwan..
xd ah rapat sgt tp leh ah bwk borak2 n jd mangsa usikan ak!
hahaha..
mmg ak sk kenakan owg tp ak terkena blk (adei!!malu)
ak sk klu tido dlm kelas..
hahah..
klu kelas boring jer mst tido tp cover2 ah (p/s:ak duk kt depan sekali aw)
xkira ah subjek apa pon..
otak ak xmasuk pon klu bljr hahah...
mst trigt uma, mkn ,n katil ak yg empuk tuh!
heeeeeee..
ak sk time rehat kot..
hahah leh mkn mkn mkn n mkn bubur!!
kegemaran kuh dan athirah!
heheh tyap2 hr mkn tuh..
mmg ah cm xkenyang tp sedap!
hehehe..
ms rehat leh gosip n tgk gelagat owg..
pastu gelakkn owg..
mmg jahat ktrg nh..
haaa ktrg sk rehat berdua jer..
sng na tarik klu da ms rehat!
alamak jd sedey plak bila trigt psl nh..

zaman sekolah mmg syok kan?? apa pon xyah pk..mmg aku enjoy abis saat2 terakhir aku sekolahh hehe

yela sekali seumur hidup weyh :P

aku btul berharap sgt yang aku reunion tuh jadi.. terlalu rndu..theta mmg the best~

if i stay calm.nothing will interrupt me

plsss one more paper to go and i will be at home soon :)

ouh gonna miss my roomates, nadia n atiqa

my kitten gone forever

pity me. i just lost my favourite kitten named chumel last sunday. i just knew about this sad new a few minutes before taking my BEL 260 paper :(

seriously i feel sober till now as i do not spend much time with it. i just could hold it fora few moments which i think the greatest moment. ALLAH loves it soo much.. and i will miss its character and cute face.

i never thought that it would die so quickly. the last time i saw it was a month ago. it was soo healthy and active as usual and could ever climb up the stairs in my bungalow. but no one know ALLAH'S fate rite? i am gonna miss it all the time. its chumel character. i can still remeber how it touched my hand softly... awwwww so sad so sad :(

ps: cats and kittens can make me happy coz they are adorable!

when my heart says i need you

*sighhh

hem okayy sorry for doing my bloggie thingy. i am so stressful about my paper just now. electric circuit 1. kill me if i repeat that paper. i just never want this to happen. i never want to extend my semester in diploma. it is enough for me to do this once in a life :(

hem last nite bonda called me. she advised me and said that i was being too spoiled brat till i couldn't bare to face any challenges even though final examination. i just couldn't be soo stressful coz i would end up sick alone without bonda around :(

but then i texted SH! told him how i didn't care about Electric circuit anymore. i just gave up! i wouldn't care if i repeat this subject! he wanted me to study and stay calm. do not think too much..okay i've tried and it all worked! but the worst thing was i didn't sleep at all. i just couldn't meet HIm in the dream world.

at dawn, he texted me to perform solah and get back to sleep after that. well i was happy and delightful when i woke up in the morning. the first thing i see is his msg. he makes me alive and breathe even better. and now my heart says i heed SH so much in my life. but when i start to love him i will start to afraid of losing him. pls i just do not want the past haunt my life again. let it be once. enough for me to suffer. now is the time for me to happy.

but i must care about my heart too. i am a girl with a fragile and used to be broken heart. take a note! now my heart is fully healed becoz of SH. it is not becoz of i like him but becoz of he can make me less forget about the EX. it is true my heart chose him but i still feel doubt about him.. hemm help me to overcome this feeling.

i was tweeting and i just got an idea about taking a good care of ur own heart as if i can take care of my heart from broken into pieces again hahaha to me plsss

hear me, i never never ever expect to have a further relationship with him.

but i know i am the right girl for him

fine sometimes i get affected.

from now on i will just go with the flow becoz time will decide everything.

yeah i am happy for having him :)

ps: i am in love again and this feeling is so great to be described in words :)

BARCELONA WON AGAINST REAL MADRID

fine.. i am still awake becoz of 'GILA BOLA' again. i told ya..i like watching fooball or soccer alot! i am not a weird girl well i must say sometimes but i do like watching this game. it makes me relax after a long day of examination -,-

i just watched game of my fav club. well i must say i do LOVE BARCELONA. u must love that club too.! trust me the players are playing awesome.. plss dun look at their handsome and cute faces haha!

okay the game barcelona against real madrid has just finished.. barca won 2-0 against real madrid. i am so happy after being stressful with my killer paper, electric citcuit 1. this game is important okay. well u said real is better than barca huh??

barca always be on top okay! their strategies are brilliant and the players play very hard. no cheating and acting like cristiano ronaldo always does heheheh :P

ps: haha YOUR team lost mine won :P i want a chocolate for granted..

if and only if

if and only if... u know how much i start loving you

if and only if... u know that my heart CHOSE you

if and only if.... u know how much i want you to be mine

if and only if... u know u are the one who healed my broken heart

if and only if.... u know that i dun even bother about ur weakness

if and only if... u know that i accept everything about you

if and only if.. u know i reserve a place for u in my heart

if and only if... u know i didn't remember how i started liking you

if and only if.. u know i feel calm when u care about me

if and only if..u know i miss you every single breathe

if and only if..u know i am afraid of losing you

if and only if...u know i didn't expect you more than a best friend but i still want you

if and only if..u know i didn't trust others but i trust you

if and only if..u know i was learned to forgive not to forget

if and only if..u know i always listen to the songs u like

if and only if.. u know i will stand right by your side to accompany you

if and only if... u know i am happy for having u

if and only if.. u know i never asked for anyone but u

if and only if.. u know i just attracted into you

if and only if.. u know i am craving of you

if and only if.. u know u are the most "KACAK" man i ever seen

if and only if.. u know u are the second last person i think before i sleep

ps:there's no reason for someone to love someone else when she/he is in love !

an uniqueness in NEW ZEALAND

hey look at this above pic.... i took it from my rumate's photo album on her fb. seriously, i was too shocked and excited when i saw this pic... those pinl sheeps in NEW ZEALAND? OMG, what a beautiful and attractive sheep i ever seen..

P.I.N.K sheeps! i do like pink soo much. they look much cuter than ever hehe... my rumate said that the owner coloured the sheeps as an attraction for visitors to come and see those pink sheeps right in front of the eyes.!

ouh i really wanna see them right before my eyes! i think they are so adorable. i feel wanna touch them?? anyone plss bring me there heeee

ps: pink sheep, i loikeee !

football freak

i stayed up late till the dawn just to know the results of the game of my favorite football clubs which are FC BARCELONA and CHELSEA FC..

well the sad thing is FC BARCELONA lost the game just now. REAL MADRID scored 1-0 upon extra time. i guess that was just luck haha.. btw, FC BARCELONA is still an excellent club i ever seen.. there's no doubt about it

well the most happiest thing today is CHELSEA FC won the game against BIRMIGHAM CITY hohoh..i am soo delightful rite now. i just can't imagine it.. u know CHELSEA scored 3 goals... cool rite.. thanks to MALOUDA.. :)

well if u dun believe me u can just read here about the winning of CHELSEA FC :)

I LOVE BARCELONA AND CHELSEA

ps: mine lost ours won :) *it is not the strange thing when a girl love to watch and know about football. it's a knowledge though

FINAL MODE

hey i am not supposed to online and post blog, aren't I? yeah i know i should study study study and study like there will be no tomorrow... i know i need to have an excellent preparation before the battle begins..

the most important thing is we must not get nervous easily. calm down. if you get nervous u will feel worse. lose focus and everything. stay calm. tawakal to ALLAH.. and study smart in this last hour :)

that's my motto..but we just can plan.ALLAH knows the future. everything is based on luck and fate. dun ever bother others :)

ouh btw.. GOODLUCK TO ALL MY FRENS AND ME AND MR.SH! heeee do ur best! struggle till the last paper!

this is what happened when i have no mood to study haha..watching MERLIN,playing MONOPOLY on my baby white and webcamwhoring..haha

ps: i just can't wait to be at home on 30 april :)