when my heart says i need you

*sighhh

hem okayy sorry for doing my bloggie thingy. i am so stressful about my paper just now. electric circuit 1. kill me if i repeat that paper. i just never want this to happen. i never want to extend my semester in diploma. it is enough for me to do this once in a life :(

hem last nite bonda called me. she advised me and said that i was being too spoiled brat till i couldn't bare to face any challenges even though final examination. i just couldn't be soo stressful coz i would end up sick alone without bonda around :(

but then i texted SH! told him how i didn't care about Electric circuit anymore. i just gave up! i wouldn't care if i repeat this subject! he wanted me to study and stay calm. do not think too much..okay i've tried and it all worked! but the worst thing was i didn't sleep at all. i just couldn't meet HIm in the dream world.

at dawn, he texted me to perform solah and get back to sleep after that. well i was happy and delightful when i woke up in the morning. the first thing i see is his msg. he makes me alive and breathe even better. and now my heart says i heed SH so much in my life. but when i start to love him i will start to afraid of losing him. pls i just do not want the past haunt my life again. let it be once. enough for me to suffer. now is the time for me to happy.

but i must care about my heart too. i am a girl with a fragile and used to be broken heart. take a note! now my heart is fully healed becoz of SH. it is not becoz of i like him but becoz of he can make me less forget about the EX. it is true my heart chose him but i still feel doubt about him.. hemm help me to overcome this feeling.

i was tweeting and i just got an idea about taking a good care of ur own heart as if i can take care of my heart from broken into pieces again hahaha to me plsss

hear me, i never never ever expect to have a further relationship with him.

but i know i am the right girl for him

fine sometimes i get affected.

from now on i will just go with the flow becoz time will decide everything.

yeah i am happy for having him :)

ps: i am in love again and this feeling is so great to be described in words :)